50 Shades of Grey

Okay I’m putting this out there so don’t judge me. I have always been pretty open about sexuality and all that jazz. (minus the whole coming out thing) I have no problem talking about it or anything.

So I have started reading Fifty Shades of Grey. I’m not big into reading so I can’t wiz through books like some people I am friends with. So I’m 90 pages in after like an hour and half. I had to force myself to put it down. It isn’t an advanced read or anything but it is one of those books that you can visualize everything as you are reading it, which I love. I’ve also downloaded the e-book versions of the other 2 books in the trilogy. So excited!!!

Then I have to go pick up the 2 new books from Opal Carew who also writes erotic fiction. I own almost every book of hers and got a bunch of the girls hooked on them when we lived in the house. Finally I will have something to do and relieve me from my boredom.

Can you be caught in a limbo and stuck in a rut at the same time?

Things just seem out of sync.

I feel like everyday it is get up, get ready, class, sit around, bed, repeat. No one wants to hire me since I’ll only be around ypsi/a2 for the summer. No luck finding anything that doesn’t require at least 3 years experience in my field. With that…I am broke. My dad wont give me money nor do I want to ask anyone else for it. Bored, broke, nothing exciting happening in life.

Then on the other side of things I’m in this limbo of balancing all the aspects of my life. Which is why I feel caught in a limbo.

I feel like im just loosing it. I have such high expectations for what I want to do and none of it is falling into place and happening.